Sorry i haven't written in a LOOONG time...
Hey girlies ( and dudes.... hahahaaha ) What is up? I've been sooo busy with life and all that i haven't been able to write in a while, soo sorry hons. But yeah you know how i'd been talkig about the Mary-Kate eating disorder thingie? Well i bought the People Magazine issue and it said somethingt about the boards on gURL.com. So i went, like 4 or 5 days ago. I was shocked, becasue it was a crisis board, which is supposedly where you go for help, ebcasue something TRAGIC ( i.e. bad in this case ) has happened and you need help recovering and overcoming. When i got there it was a total opposite. Girls were goiving eachother advice on purging ( i.e. barfing up your food) and fasting. SOme girls were like " I WNAT AN EATING DISORDER!!!" It was scary. one girl was like. " All fo you who coem on here wanting an ed, you can't choose to eb anorexic. Ana finds you, she chooses you she wraps her arms around you and whispers instruction in your ear...." For all fo you thinking " whoa! is she on crack?!" No, she's not. She has the true diagnosis of anorexia-nervosa ( i think i spelled it correctlly ). It is not as simple as girls just not eating, it's a mental disease, to her, ana ( it's slang for an anorexic person or girl ) is a real person. And when she looks in teh mirror she sees something different than everyone else. In her mind, being stick thin, with bones emerging, and no fat is beautiful. And no matetr what you say, it won't affect her, becasue it's a mental disease. they strive for pefection. and to them. " thin is perfection." You may be surprised how much i foudn out by just goig on teh boards and reading teh posts, as much as i would prolly learn from a book, MORE even. Ok basically, they have thinspiration. Girls taht ar anorexic or superskinny that are their inspiration to get that thi. ( lately it has been Mary_kate and it's reported that she's like 77 pounds....) They keep these pictures in their " thinspiration Journals" Which are journals where tehy have " thinspiration quotes" Like : " what nourishes me desroys me" and " Skinny is beautiful" and like " Eating hurts but starving works" and other stuff like that. They also record their weight daily, and what they eat. They usually ahve less than like 400 cals a day. One girl talked about a 2,4,6,8 diet. Where teh first day you have 20 cals, then teh next day you have 400, and it goes on and on fro weeks. Just repeating. Otehrs take laxatives and diet pills and eat enough food so taht their vitamins work. Scary eh? it's liek a whole nother world. Most of these girls are pro-ana. They wear red bracelets with beads that remind them not to eat, and they go on pro-ana sites with pics of girls who weigh liek 39lbs ( no joke) and are liek 5'9. This one girl told a story of how ehr friend died at 39 lbs. Most people on that CRISIS board are pro-ana and don't wnat help. But there are a select few who do. i ahve posted on there. I know it's none of my business, but i voiced my opinion about how this is supposed to be a crisi board for girls who want help. Many agreeed and one girl said. " i totally agree with you. P.s. YOU GO GIRL!" That made me feel like i at least mad a tiny difference in someone's life. lol. I mean, the board really affected me. It was like once i got on i was addicted. was sooo curious and what these girls were talking about, taht it even chnaged my eating habits. I mean iw as less hungry and i ddin't eat very much. It was like it triggered something in my mind. It was scary. I mean, if it ahd that effect on me, imagine what effect it had on girls who were liek 120lbs. with girls saying that 90lbs was fat, what kind of ideas are they getting from that? They are getting ideas that tehy are fat. Believe me, it's scary. I am curently helping two girls and talking to them about it. One girl is a dancer who has just been diagnosed with anorexia and is starting counseling. I talk to her about it and i feel like maybe i can make a tiny difference in someonme's life. Ok taht sounds very cliche but i just really wanted to help as much as i could. Anotehr girl is verweight and says that everyone teases her and she's afraid that she might develop it. Total i've talked to tehse girls for about 2 hours. You may think taht i just want to help these girls to seem like a good samaritan and that everyoen shoudl praise me for it. no. That';s not true. i just want to help people. And the gURL.com boards triggered it. I am NOT going abck there for a long time, and i am going to write gurl about it, ebcasue they should at least TRY to monitor it. Ok, i am done raving on lol. I just hope that people realize how horrible eds are and i hope it's opened their eyes. It's opened mine.
~*~StEpHiEkInS~*~
Posted at 12:31 pm by Stephiekins
